These.. are the pieces of my Soul.. broken.. and mended.. but ever still in ruins..

"But I, being poor, have only my dreams; I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams." ~ W. B. Yeats ~


Favorite prose


close your eyes.
slip your tiny fingers
in between mine.
it still makes me shiver
every single time.
• A Quiet Boy •


This heart still believes that love and mercy still exist. But....
It's like whispering a prayer in the fury of a storm.
I still believe one day ill find another. But....
It's like trying to stop a fire with the moisture of a kiss.
• Gilberto •


for every breath that i exhaled
you took less then half
smiling at the way i looked
as you lied on my lap
then i woke up screaming
and i couldn't take it back.
• A Quiet Boy •


Love me or hate me.
You will never
Never
Break me…
• Gilberto •


for it's in you
to choose
to believe in yourself
and believe you are loved
more than anything else
• Candora •


• the waiting almost killed her •



Read the previous one. It's a whole different story. literally and figuratively. even though it's about the same thing: waiting.


"please no..." the little girl whispers. afraid. deathly afraid. shaking uncontrollably. unable to get warm, no matter which way she turns.

The demon just ignores her barely audible pleas. It continues to hiss in her ear. You must hurry. Before it passes. Fix it. Fix yourself. You know what to do. You know you want to.

"please no..." is all she can whimper, "please no... please... no... no... no..." choking on confusion, unsure how to deal with this fatal choice.

Do it quickly. Don't worry. The demon's voice rages everywhere, invading her head. violating her. I'll lead you there.

She watches, horrified as the demon's hand looms over her, ready to cut her umbilical cord. to rip her away; to expose her. Times awasting. We don't have all the time in the world. Breath stealing pain shoots through her again.

Doubling over in agony, she huddles in the corner as if it will protect her from her fears. Trying to hold them in, she curls up in a tense ball as small as she can, wishing she could just disappear, never to have existed in the first place.

Cold tears soak into her skin. She can't stop shivering

but the demon just screams louder.

It rakes sharp nails across her body, destroying the protective flesh over her heart, leaving dark red ribbons in place of her stomach, and a bloody mess where her face once sat. Do it now, the demon commands her with pitiless disgust.

NO! She wants to scream back with all the air that's left in her lungs, but she can't. Unable to even steady her hand, all she can do is beg for her life, but the demon is relentless.

You're worthless now. Just do it.

"please no..." she cries softly with indecision, knowing she should have listened to her dreams... and knowing it's too late.

please no.




Forever • Broken

Pieces scattered to the darkness

Leave something of yourself in my book
(if you'd like)



I'm gonna smile my best smile.
I'm gonna laugh like it's going out of style.
Look into her eyes and pray, that she don`t see...
That learning to live again, is killing me....
• Garth Brooks •

if time was a place we could travel through
I would find a way to return to you
just to let you know that I still care
and you are always welcome here
• Candora •

so let your pathos shine through your skin
let the wine trickle down your throat
stand up and be pursuaded that
the worlds still full of hope
• A Quiet Boy •


Favorite poems


"I turned to view my steps well worn, trails of mist in the naked eye. As exhaustion came one final fell, I enjoyed not wanting more."
• A. Noble •


for all the lost words
for all the missed romances
for all the masters
for all the unknown chances

I dedicate this one
to the song no one heard
and the writer not read
and every lost word
• Candora •


is a hopeful romantic
as hopeless as this
can the meaning of life
be found in a kiss
does nothing else matter
beyond sharing bliss
did you ever wonder
what you might miss
• Candora •


sometimes I just want someone save me
as if somebody really could
and sometimes I think
I'll believe it if they want me to
if only somebody would
• Candora •


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